Encourager
I was an upbeat and positive person who had experienced relatively few
health problems and then I found a lump in my breast. When I was told,
"You have breast cancer" I became aware how fragile life is.
After
radiation treatments, I returned to work attempting to lead a "normal"
life but every time I experienced a pain or unusual feeling I was sure
it could only mean that the cancer had returned. When I looked at myself
I realized how sad I had become. Although I had a wonderful husband,
supportive friends, assurances from my doctors that I was doing well and
what I had always considered to be strong faith, I allowed cancer to
take away my joy.
One day as I looked in the mirror, I turned up
the corners of my mouth with my fingers and forced a smile. I actually
made myself laugh. I began to smile even when I still felt sad inside
and I tried to push negative and fearful thoughts from my mind by
replacing them with some verse or idea that was positive and uplifting.
One
morning as I read my Bible (lI Cor.1:3 - 4) it became clear to me that I
had an opportunity to comfort others as I had been comforted. I began
to write notes of encouragement to a co-worker's mother, a woman who had
worked with my husband and others who had been diagnosed with cancer.
Most of these people I have never met. Some have responded by writing
the most beautiful and moving letters I have ever received. Others have
conveyed to me through a relative or friend that my writing has given
them a lift.
My neighbor has just finished radiation treatments
for breast cancer. As we talked I could see that she is fearful and I
told her I understand because I experienced those same emotions. I feel
so privileged and blessed to have a relationship with these special
people.
Cancer has changed my life. I have found that life is so
rich. I have learned how deep friendship can become and the importance
of caring for others. My faith has become stronger and I understand the
urgency to reach out to others when they are hurting. I recently walked
the labyrinth in the garden behind The West Clinic. I would encourage
others to do the same - it is good to contemplate and reflect on our
lives. Today, I rejoice in the fact that I am healthy not only in body
but in mind and spirit.